When I think about it, I cry. It isn't a tear which is shed but gulping for breaths of air and water pouring out of my eyes. Despite the fact they tried, it wasn't enough. Sometimes things in life aren't explainable. Like wanting to die when you're alive.
I only heard about all the cruel things that happened but I absorbed them. I don't believe in the after-life. Heaven and hell are right here on earth. You don't get to choose what happens to you. You don't get to choose your family.
There are things which I know for sure like how the minutes will pass slowly. How I will flip the calendar in 30 days. How I will go to work, come home from work and try to maintain a pleasant attitude about it all. There are things I don't know like what's it like to be alone for 60 years.
How I dance in the hallway says everything about who I am. You make the best of it. If you can't, you can't. I have tons of empathy for the average human. It's sad just being alive.
The Thoughtfulness of this Weigh's Heavy On My Soul - Reminds me of William Shatner's song about Masks people wear.
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